When I Hear People Talk in the Past Tense About Their Dead
Todd Dillard
I call my dead mom.
“Mom,” I say. “You won’t believe this shit.”
And I tell her about my neighbor
putting his wife’s shoes on
the curb beside a sign that reads: NEVER
WORN. I say he likes to joke:
“She loved buying shoes
more than wearing them,”
and my mom shouts “THAT’S STILL TRUE!”
They ran into each other at Fallmart
last week, my neighbor’s wife was holding
six pairs of dominatrix boots
and two Pepto Bismol-colored wedges.
I say my friend can’t get over
how she no longer hears her husband
singing, and Mom says these days
he digs holes in the ground,
sticks his head in, and belts
Puccini, Rossini, Leoncavallo into the earth and
an apple tree springs out of the soil.
He repeats this until the rows and rows
form an orchard, Mom says.
If you eat an apple his voice wings out its flesh
and dribbles down your chin. It’s sweet:
I call my dead mom, and she is never
too busy to answer. I say
something about my life
and her laugh arrives like a carrier pigeon
on my head, the message
not a scroll, but a hand mirror.
I look into it, and she waves
from the window of my eye.


